I don’t want all my posts to be negative while I am being overwhelmed with thoughts and emotions. I thought I would write things I love/miss about him.
I literally just loved looking at you, you are gorgeous. More than that though the way you looked at me always smiling at me.
You would always point out how happy I looked when you would kiss my forehead or hug me and that made you happy too.
When you laughed and really laughed at your own jokes or something dumb it was so cute. You said you hated your laugh I love it.
I always say this but I loved your clothes keep being you.
I loved you’re stories and your passion about them. I loved your passion about other peoples stories too.
How passionate you were about politics even when the worlds gone to shit and its hard to not give up.
What a good cat dad you were and good dad to rambo you were.
How much you just liked to walk around places. I miss walking with you around places at night looking at the lights.
How much you liked to cook and how good you were at it even though you’d usually say it could be better even though it was amazing.
How much you care about everyone and want to help everyone.
I miss holding your hand. I miss resting my head on you. I miss rubbing your back I really do. I miss you calling me on your 10 minutes breaks or your lunch breaks even if we had seen each other most the day. I miss you teasing me and I miss you tickling me. I miss talking star wars and movie trailers with you.
I miss knowing everything was going to be alright. Most of my posts are going to be me being sad and maybe a tiny bit of anger because when I think of all the good we had that we lost I don’t know how I am doing it. How have I not relapsed? How am I just going on? You were my favorite person you were my best friend you made me feel safe no matter what was going on. I’m sorry I couldn’t do that for you?
And there is so much more I love and miss I just get too emotional loose my train of though.